The PR Vs CEO Vs Developer Conundrum

"Right answer, wrong answer, it matters not, your replies are all paper thin. Goodbye" -Origami Princess Peach

There is a distinctive if not overly important (right now) problem with Corporations and the way they communicate with the public. I'd of course say that of any Corporation  but today I wanna focus on The Entertainment Industry. Specifically in the only place I feel I can have a say. 

I also have to say this is all speculative and based on my experiences with NDAs and Social media clauses in general.It really rather seems what a "Artist" is "Allowed" to say is dictated by The Marketing and PR Firms of any given company, and in turn what they say is overseen by the elusive higherups.

What results in my opinion is a dissonance between what is said to us, and what the truth is. Regardless of its intent.

With a Middleman deliberately tasked with hyping up, apologizing on behalf of, or placating the public. It becomes hard to trust anything a Company's "Voice" says, and when individuals are interviewed I imagine they are very careful with what they say, how they say it and might not always reflect their own views.

This kind of thing might be good to placate and ensure good brand image, but it certainly makes it difficult to trust anything and often leads to misinformation or misleading assumptions on what Artists think versus what the company they work for thinks.

At least that is how  I see things working. I don't claim to be an expert.

What do you think? Let me know!

Stay Golden,

~MjaxMajoran

Love Is Strange. (Part 2/2)

"Love is More Valuable than Infinite Diamonds" -Mjax Age 6

Hello Again, 

So last Time I promised One thing kinda and then went on a tangent about the history leading up to it,

This time I'm going to for certain explain what that first Post was supposed to be about.

The whirlwind and confusion that I experienced after Entering my first real relationship was well confusing. I suppose it being long distance didn't help but while i Knew i was much happier and definitley glad id reacted the way I did, I found myself at odds with myself with feelings a friend likened to Imposter Syndrome, the state of mind where you believe that you are not the person who you tell people you are, nor who they see in you. Which I agree is pretty accurste to how i was feeling, I kept fighting against this thought in my mind that i was lying to them and myself, that I didn't truly love them, that Id acted rashly out of fear. Various things led to this I'm sure not least of all was the lack of hormone inbalance making everything seem less intense than with my first crush.

I kept questioning myself and others on what they thought was the truth, Was it fear of losing that person if I rejected them, or worse broke up with them because I was wrong, or Did I truly love this person and simply hadn't fully come to terms with this different kind of feeling, fueled by self doubt and other factors. 

Eventually I talked to them about it, straight up. after having deemed for myself that I infact did care about them more than anyone before, that I would be willing to self sacrifice for their well being, and that I probabbly wouldn't have even been this concerned if I didn't.

They reassured me about things and understood it quite well. I was and still am Damn positive I love this person, even if the "usual" signs weren't there at first. Besides, im neuroatypical so I'm not even completely sure if the Usual applies to me. I know the first time I fell in love was different from what I expected too. 

Anyhow, It's because my experiences were so different from how I normally see it described and shown that I wanted to delve into it, 2 years after the fact, to really describe just how Strange Love really is.

Until Next Time,

Mjax Majoran

What Is Love? (Part 1/2)

"Love is weird in humans, it kinda defies the usual chemicals and urges to procreate. Even as a cynic I find that pretty beautiful" -Mjax Majoran

Dear World,

So usually I'm all fancy and formal and pretentious with these entries but I really think this topic doesn't need, and in some ways doesn't deserve that kind of needless parody/formality.

I suppose My experiences with what I'll refer to as Romantic Love for clarity have been a bit Tumultuous overall. Starting with the whole "love is great and beautiful but its not for me, to a few dumb crushes which were mostly fabricated to get people off my back or because I figured they were cute-ish personality or Appearance wise. but most of those I don't think I'd ever consider Real, at least not in the way my last two... including my current; dances with romantic love have been.

It's important to know that I view myself very much as complicated when it comes to my Sexuality and Romantic interests, the closest labels applicable would probably be Asexual* PanRomantic.

The reason for the * there is that while I derive little pleasure from traditional sexual imagery, flirting, and the physical appearance of others. I am capable of enjoying Physical intimacy with someone I actually love romantically, even if it's partially or mostly due to their enjoyment by proxy. I am also quite capable of self pleasure though require Paraphilias or a long time to really get in the mood. traditionally Sexual themes do not apply to me.

With that Digression out of the way Let's talk about that First real Crush. In the interests of being mature I won't be saying their name or alluding to details which would allow someone who I didn't trust to discover their identity, As that would risk harassment of them which They do not deserve.

I found my first crush much in the same way i found my current love, the difference in their case was I was introduced via a mutual friend who had met them years prior and knew We were both into the same show at the time, it wasn't a matchmaking thing at all, my friend just figured I'd like someone to discuss the show with. This person and I became fast friends, even meeting in person so as to be more comfortable talking to each other (I wasn't even in high school at the time) And while I knew from the beginning something was different, I didn't yet know what. Overtime we became quite close in my opinions discussing all sorts of personal things and deep thoughts. Shit in retrospect probably led to the downfall of our friendship entirely. I won't say hormones had nothing to do with what happened, but Quite a few bystanders at the time did assure me what happened was in fact That i fell in love for realsies.

My biggest mistake was not being able to really read people well back then, that and admitting to my crush so soon in a game of truth or dare. There were other signs of course that I should have let go and moved on, the revolving door of relationships they had at the time (some of whom were objectively pretty immature and toxic) and never offering me a chance. I probably would have been better off if my assertion to myself that we were better off as friends wasn't being clouded by my hormones and legitimate feelings. At two points I believe I approached them myself, both times they gave valid reasonings that nevertheless hurt quite a bit and really got to me. In some of the final years shit got really messy as a meetup group for the show we created together started having drama, fingers were pointed every which way. And My crush just kinda disappeared off the grid. many Years later I found myself giving friendship another shot after we had ceased speaking for a long time, it started out fine, but turned sour when the "real" reasoning for having disappeared and consistently rejecting me came out. What prompted it was merely me reminiscing on positive memories that had nothing to do with it. Their reasoning while valid, was also hypocritical and manipulative. They deemed I needed to let go of both the good and bad, and move on, that memories would only fuel the fact that I was as a person Depressing.

It took me a long time to forgive them, and forgive myself. And while I would apologize and try to start anew, I think that their entire point was pretty clear. We were more different than I thought in that way.

My current Love, whom I hope to keep, I met before my first real crush, and in fact re-met after this whole shiz went down. I at first had feelings toward them, but due to previous experience and their significantly long distance I forced myself to repress them, which i Successfully did for many years. Anyway, a Couple years back and sometime still, They Started dropping hints, and i'm kind of well ace and autistic and sometimes dense so I never picked up on it. To be fair the hints were at first subtle, stuff I took for granted like drawings of our animal characters cuddling like animals do. It didn't even seem unusual to me when the actual flirtish jokes happened because that was just our humour, I really should have realised that nobody draws your characters over 100 times for free with extensive effort just because you're friends. and I mean the Friends With Art Benefits Joke? And the hearts drawn on some of the drawings. Yeah I was dense. Overtime though I really noticed certain things I either didn't or couldn't repress.

Listening and talking to them for hours about anything and everything, finding myself making joke plans to come visit them, always being more critical of their choices but supportive too. Not to mention the fact that, they just made me well happy. I guess i never acknowledged it as love again because what i'd felt during my first crush felt so much more like what the media tries to push as Real Romance, those feelings and actions that are hyperbolic in every article or movie. It made things hard to discern between a really close friend and something a bit more. At one point though They confessed to me, outright, and I guess I was expecting something deep or important when they kept struggling to just say it, but I know I hadn't been expecting it.

I recall turning red, and being unable to speak for a few moments... and then I just returned the sentiment, without second thought.*

It was a bit of a whirlwind after that, and its kind of the main reason for this post.

but since this is long winded enough I'll get into it on a second part.

Until then,

Mjax Majoran

Self Improvement and The Internal Struggle: A Pretentious Literary Analogy.

"There is nothing noble in being superior to your fellow man; true nobility is being superior to your former self." -Ernest Hemmingway

Dear World,

It's been some time since I updated this old blog and a lot of things have happened in the interim, I suppose the most notable things would require Posts of their own but to put things in perspective, on November 15th 2017 I in no uncertain terms entered into a romantic long distance relationship. I cannot be certain that it was meeting them in person (the following summer) for the first time since we'd met in 2012 that spurred me to Be where i Currently find myself motivation wise, but I have no doubts it was a contributor. 

I had told myself if I started doing these again they'd be less 900 IQ Galaxy brain, but I Somewhat enjoy the more formal writing style.

But I digress, It is now the final full week of november 2019, and as of recently i've rediscovered a motivation for self improvement in all areas of my life. Including Fitness, Health, Hygiene, Social Skills and of course Home Maintenence and Cleansliness. Through use of a similar app to the popular Habitica plus my own self disipline I've set and sought goals that are more tangible and in my face. This first week had some bumps I will admit, but I hope to develop some positive habits in the long run. This of course won't be the first time I have tried... I usually try quite q few times every year with mixed results. Usually starting with a cliche pep talk monologue, a week of slowly getting into the groove, a second week of absolute improvement and then one day Where i slip up and everything falls apart for several months. 

I can't help but compare this to the literary ideas of the Internal Struggle/External Motivation. For if I were a fictional character I'm quite sure why I consistently fail at what I've been doing would be the former, with my reasonings for even trying to, the latter.

External motivations like the physical health and wellbeing of myself, my family and animal companions, impressing job interviewers and an end to the constant reminders of my dwindling ability to be independant. And internal struggles like self image, self esteem, procrastination, bad decisions and even outright laziness. Not to mention the mental disorders which while not solely responsible, do contribute and enable these flaws of self. 

It is my hope that like a fictional character then, that I shall be able to rise above and overcome. Truly improving in all aspects by the end of my story.

Yours, 

Mjax Majoran

The Alteria Crew Part I: Jason Jaysnow Jr.

Basic Statistics

Name: Jason Jaysnow Jr.

Age: 15

Nationality: Altarian (Alternative Universe NorthAmerican)

Socioeconomic Level as a child: Richer than You'd expect

Socioeconomic Level as an adult: Set to inherit parents company


Hometown: Statera

Current Residence: Statera

Occupation: Student

Income: 500& allowance

Talents/Skills: Parkour Novice

Salary: N/A

Birth order: First and Only

Grandparents (Dead):

Relationship skills: Charismatic, Natural Leader

Physical Characteristics:

Height:5' 11"

Weight: 140lbs

Species: Alt Human (Conduit)

Race: (Caucasian)

Eye Color: Bluish Silver

Hair Color: Silver with frosted tips

Skin color: Pale, whitish

Shape of Face: Angular

Distinguishing features: Athletic but scrawny build, notable brow

How does he/she dress: Wears custom clothes made by his parents company, and designed by him

Mannerisms: A bit of a goofball

Habits: Tends to get into fights he can't win, also a bit nosy

Health: Generally of good health

Hobbies: Enjoys a good card game. Designing things, and art

Favorite Sayings: Life's only dull if you can't find the edge of your seat

Speech patterns: "Tends to talk quickly and without thinking"

Disabilities: Possible ADD

Style (Elegant, shabby etc.): Quirky

Greatest flaw: Easily angered

Best quality: Loyal to the end

Intellectual/Mental/Personality Attributes and Attitudes

Educational Background: High Schooler Grade 11

Intelligence Level: 6/10

Mental Illnesses: Possibly ADD

Learning Experiences: Plenty

Character's short-term goals in life: Make Friends, Be Happy

Character's long-term goals in life: Change The World

How does Character see himself/herself: A generally nice guy

How does Character believe he/she is perceived by others: a rich asshole

How self-confident is the character: More than he should be

Does the character seem ruled by emotion or logic or some combination thereof: seems driven by emotion and intuition

What would most embarrass this character: Being caught naked

Emotional Characteristics

Strengths/Weaknesses: Loyal/Foolhardy

Introvert or Extrovert: Ambivert

How does the character deal with anger: Badly

With sadness: Depression

With conflict: The middle man or the one to step in

With change: Welcomes it

With loss: Fears it

What does the character want out of life: Good times and good feels

What would the character like to change in his/her life: others perception of him

What motivates this character: Change for the better

What frightens this character: Loss of friends

What makes this character happy: Food

Is the character judgmental of others: Not very

Is the character generous or stingy: bit of both

Is the character generally polite or rude: Generally crude

How the Character is Involved in the Story

Character's role in the novel (One of Four Heroes):

Relationships with other characters:

1. Amber Cinders: -- (From Babysitter to Best friend, Amber serves as both JJ's foil and right hand Gal, she acts like a parental figure at times and eventually treats him as an equal).

2. \Flower Mae: -- (Although at first taken aback by his exuberance, flower begins to view JJ as a sort of inspirational leader and good friend).

3. Zach Tekite: -- (Views JJ as his hero, but also his closest friend in statera, over time builds his own confidence to stand on his own).

How character is different at the end of the novel from when the novel began:

SPOILERS HONEY!

Additional Notes on This Character:

Jason Jaysnow Jr. or JJ Is the Child of world renowned buisness owners Blue, and Jason Jaysnow, He is regarded by many incorrectly to be a Rich boy with everything in life handed to him, although quite the opposite he can't seem to lose that perception no matter what he does, Driven by a sense of good and evil that may be a bit too black and white, JJ values his friends over anything else, and forms bonds easily given the chance. While he's a bit nosy and curious, and maybe just a tad impulsive JJ has a keen eye for details and can usually figure out a situation given time.

An Overly Pretentious Title about Meta or Philosophy or Some Shit

“Hold On a second, let me rephrase it with a quotation” 

― An Asshat from the internet

Hello Nobody!



Just Call it Meta, its not canon its meta fictioooon! then slowly turn away. Hello All of you uh... random internet users from brazil apparently. Today we get to talk about one of my very favorite things... ME! Well that and metafiction and fourth walls but mostly me!

Now you're likely no doubt aware that this blog is run by one dude who barely has a grip on life, but did you also know he has personality traits evocative of someone who has ambitions but will never finish anything due to a lack of motivation? Well you do now. he also loves making cheeky reference jokes...and memes.

So let's finish something for once, and get down to business,



Draft saved at 5:11 PM 2018-05-30

Re:What does EQG Do that FiM doesn’t.

I found this article quite interesting, so I think I’m going to reply to it.

EQG does a few things that FiM does not in my opinion, but nothing that MLP FiM isn’t capable of, nor did not set the groundwork for. First and foremost I must explain that The whole Shimmy Vs Glimmy argument doesn’t apply anywhere in this article or my own, because had she been written a bit better, Glimmy could easily stand as a much different character to Shimmer, I bring this up because I want to make it clear I like Sci Twi and Shimmer more than Glimmer. And the reason, as the show and the movies have provided, is that Shimmer is on a quest for redemption in focus, while glimmer was forced into redemption then rushed along... I don’t believe this is the fault of writers entirely but as the article in question points out, a problem with format.

Glimmer could easily have several episodes focussed on her development, but to do that would distract from the mane six and the world as a whole. Since the show has always been about the latter, making it about the former would upset the status quo.

EQG focusses primarily on the redemption stories that MLP only dabbles in. But not because MLP cannot focus on character building, but because it chose not to. But then, in a way so did EQG, the excuse I often hear for this is that these mane six didn’t learn the lessons the pony mane six did; But given the canon prequel to the series and their depictions in the movies, I have to doubt thats the only thing at fault. Its In that way I’ve never particularly cared for the human incarnations, because just like MLP they introduced two new characters, and then tried to focus on both the original five and the two deeper set ones. What was sacrificed was depth in the original five themselves. Animal shy girl, Honest working farm girl, chick obsessed with fashion, sports compettive nutbar and spastic party chick that guesses everything on point. Then there is sci twi and shimmer, whom are so deep and complex its almost jarring in comparison.

What I’m trying to say is EQG does something that FiM decided to do aswell, did arguably better, but failed in the same way. by suffering from Seventh Ranger syndrome. How do you focus on your main cast while still developing your new cast without creating a sort of distance, a percievable gap in development
It’s my hope with the miniseries of shorts overtime EQG can overcome this gap that MLP has decided to simply overlook and force. But in the end... EQG does precisely what FiM does... just with a different coat of paint.

Song Lyrics Analysis: Always Running

Always Running - Originally Written and Composed by Kevin Sherwood

Hello World,

Today I wish to preform an analysis on a song written and composed by Kevin Sherwood which was originally featured in the Hit Video Game: Call Of Duty Black Ops 2 Zombies. I will first post the applicable Lyrics and follow it up with the analysis proper, I hope you enjoy.

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In this sollemn field of Silence, I can barely feel the pain. Blind and deaf to all the violence, but I’ve always felt this way. On the wind is a smell of misery, fear and death perfume the air. When It begins again is mystery, and I always end up there. Always unsuspecting, so easy to lure me away from all the angels.

I am running, from something I’m becoming; Unstoppable and I’m running from the something that I’m coming from. Always Running.

I Am, letting go of all that I know, from this burried well of conciousness I can barely hear the rain, Everyone becomes anonnymous, all the faces seem the same, Always unrelenting, descending into our own nightmare, from this twisted fantasy, Running far away from this beauty of annihilation. Do the faceless, face this fear.

(chorus plays again)

Ive become, something they all run from. I want you to be gone, but I know youve just begun, why I am I numb. To everything I have done, there is no going back for me; becoming has taken its toll on me

(chorus again)

So From this song, we can clearly see This song is about a man or woman with diarhea. The song is performed as if it were a monologue, and the singer is speaking to us the viewer. Allow me to explain:

They start off by describing how they very rarely ever feel it coming before it happens, relating that the violent nature of the side effects are something they feel all the time so they are never quite certain it is indeed a bowel problem. I am sure you may be wondering how I came to this conclusion, bare with me, They continue to describe the first notable symptoms being the stench, and comedically contrast it with the smell of perfume. They lament that when it happens is not something they can predict, while ending up in the same place is. From this I gather they are describing the affliction of diarhea and a bathroom respectively. They reinforce this problem by relating angels and bathrooms together without expressedly saying as such.

The something which they are becoming is never outright said but it is easy to decipher with the previous lyrical implications that being diarhetic is that of which is being alluded to. The term running may also refer to the feeling of the Fecal matter being ejected from the anal cavity at maximum force.

The second verse describes the singer as being in a place where they let go of all their thoughts and ideas to focus on the issue on hand, in a place they describe as a burried well, It may be a stretch but they may be reffering to an outhouse here, and the reason they are unable to hear the rain is because of the sound of their own flatulence. The singer then moves on to describe their friends and family becoming a single being or an group of beings which they are unable to decipher, again alluding to running for a latrine, as their affliction is an unrelenting force which cannot be stopped. A metaphorical nightmare or twisted version of reality. They wish to get to the latrine so they will not face the social ramifications of soiling themselves. They end by wondering if anyone else feels the same as them or if they relate rather than judge.

The singer reinforces their plight with a run of the chorus before letting the viewer know that despite their best attepmts the social ramifications of constantly having diarhea have caught up to them. They question why they feel numb both in the anal region and in their mind. They finish off in a pessimistic view that there is no return from their fall from grace as the affliction has finally taken its toll

The song then repeats the chorus several times, so as to prove this point.

But that’s just one man’s analysis, I’d love to hear yours so leave a comment or email me and remember to keep on keepin on

Musically Yours,
Mjax Majoran

On The Potential Consequence of Change For The Wrong Reasons Vs. The Right

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The Following blog post is actually a discussion on the 13th Doctor of the TV Canon Doctor Who Program. It will contain opinions, Facts, and Ideas and you are free to disagree with them.

On Being an Atypical.

“The most interesting people you’ll find are ones that don’t fit into your average cardboard box. They’ll make what they need, they’ll make their own boxes” - Dr. Temple Grandin

Hello World,

There is a saying, that goes if you’ve met one person with autism, you have met ONE person with autism. I rather think that its clever in the way that it subverts and distorts the popular phrase of meeting one type of person means you've met them all. I also feel like it’s probabbly true.

I was diagnosed with a High Functioning Autism Spectrum Disorder This year, it is likely I have had it all my life and looking back it explained so many things to me, it gave a reason. Not an excuse, but a reason for why things were so weird to me.

I never understood eye contact, or how you could simply walk up to someone and say hi without that being weird... in all honesty I still don’t. I would curl up into a ball and scream when people asked me to decide and frankly I’ve always been considered a weirdo. So instead of trying to claim these things are all due to autism I’m simply going to relay the things that were always a bit odd about me... and reflect on it here.

I am rigid, now not the kind of rigid you’d expect, but it's very hard to convince me of something, make me change my ways, or even convince me something isn't true if I believe it. Yet at the same time if I don`t know you, I may or may not be willing to listen to your advice and I may even find myself repeating it. I do that a lot actually, I like reference jokes and dad jokes because they're simple. Everything I say seems to come across in a tone that makes me sound like an asshole or like I know it all but I certainly do not know everything I barely know anything, and what I do know might not be true. I suppose I have difficulty... in figuring out what is or isn't factual since despite understanding things are not black and white, I still want them to be. So because of how I articulate things, I seem normal  but just an asshole.

Sometimes I find myself overtly obsessed with keeping order or organization of things, niche things... real tangible things rarely find their way into that sphere, It kind of confuses people a lot of the time. It confuses me to. But some things feel right even if I couldn't tell you why exactly. I’m also very protective of the things I like... I make fun of them because i love them, but others doing it is iffy at best. Often I suppose I’m a hypocrite in ways that I don`t even realize.

To an extent semantics and proper usage of terms is a need for me, not to grammar Nazi levels of course, but, just in general. I also tend to connect widely different topics together in a string like a Wikipedia hyperlink game... I have always done that, I consider it a skill. much like the semantics I mentioned.

When it comes to fantasy or sci-fi, or anything creative, things need to make sense, If I’m part of the creative process it has to logically fit in somehow, even if its ludicrous... I am very stubborn about this and it makes role-playing, something I do non erotically as you know, pretty hard to deal with. 0

In some ways I feel like I adopt popular opinions, just because they're popular, unless they go against my own moral code... I’m not entirely sure why I do this, but it's not hard to tell, I’m often called out for it and it often leaves me feeling perplexed, I guess in a way I think it will help me relate to other people more?

Which is hard enough when the way people interact Doesn’t really make sense to me, hazing and that kinda thing, I do not understand it. I've always been very literal, I’m not good with nuance or really reading social cues, top that with anxiety and it makes life a mess to navigate. Sometimes I find myself in fights I never wanted to have... in fact conflict follows me wherever I go. Possibly because I see things differently, maybe not better, though I may act like it, but my perspective Doesn’t often line up with others, even other autistic individuals like myself... It’s difficult to really tell. Sometimes I just don’t understand why people do the things they do or believe what they do, and its with almost everyone I meet. I think I've had trouble socializing for as long as I can remember, people always get annoyed or mad at me and Sometimes I honestly have trouble understanding why. I feel bad but also mad when $#!7 like that happens.

I’m brain smart, not life smart. I can tell you plenty of useless facts, facts that are interesting to me...but to others are simply drivel, it makes me sad, Along the same lines I find myself struggling with even the most mundane of tasks, hygiene, changing clothes, doing laundry, making dinner on time, you name it and having ADHD on top of it doesn’t help either.

I`m very particular about a number of things, fussy, wouldn't even let my food touch as a kid. I feel a constant longing for stability and planning, fear change and suddenness yet at the same time become depressed if things are too...well stationary. If things don’t change if I’m doing the same thing without any difference it irks me... yet with other things I can never get tired of. I really like cartoons, and I love animals, I love things of both genders stereotypes... I’m an oddball... and I love it. I also have my version of time-frames, jokingly called Mark Unstandard Time, I remember things almost too exactly sometimes and forget other things fast. I have my understanding of the definitions of words, and apparently I’m really good at writing essays. Yet even among other spectrum i feel alone... I feel alike finally I have a reason to understand why I’m like this... even if i haven’t mentioned everything here. That`s why I like typing and writing these things, helps me put thoughts together clearly, at least to me. Explaining things and having things explained has never been my strong suit.

But Hey At Least I'm Trying Right?

Mjax Majoran