Monday, 28 November 2022
Wednesday Series 1 Review
Friday, 18 November 2022
TV7: The Happiness Review
DOCTOR WHO:
The Happiness Patrol
Written by:
Graeme_Curry
Edited by:
Andrew Cartmel
Saturday, 23 April 2022
Doctor Who: The Target Review Page
Sunday, 5 December 2021
Doctor Who: Flux: Reviewed?
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Wednesday, 24 November 2021
9DAs: Hunting Season
Sunday, 8 August 2021
6MR: The Juggernauts Audio Review
‘In a small city on the northend of the planet of Earth, Reviews are occurring -- the results of which could dramatically or not at all affect things on a opinionated scale. For within the dingy corridors of the truck backseat, the lone passenger of a devastatingly boring trip has expertly started listening their way into the story mentioned above
A passenger known as Mjax.
Wednesday, 21 April 2021
7MR: LIVE 34
Thursday, 4 March 2021
6MR: Oddities: Vampire Of The Mind Review
Monday, 8 February 2021
Of Authenticity and Fear
"Putting a quote at the beginning of something only makes you seem smarter to idiots" -UnknownTriggered by a number of recent self examinations I've come to wonder If who I portray myself to be is consistent with who i really am, or if it's the result of a toxic unending anxiety, a fear of rejection. While there are a number of things which i hold as a moral or ethical code based in nature and nurture alike, other things ive found I'm easily influenced by, especially when it comes to interacting with people i don't know. This has the inverse effect of me being stubborn and steadfast in my beliefs when challenged by people I do know and no longer fear Abandonment or judgement from. And if the individuals whom are way more wise than me, have agreed that, all the worlds a stage, that we are all constantly performing for others (see here) than I'm not entirely sure they're wrong based on my personal experience.
Monday, 14 September 2020
The Silver Lining Of Dad Guilt
"Missing someone hurts, but whats hurts even more, is knowing that you're the reason that they're gone."
Hello Internet, sometimes i find myself wondering why it is in the last 4 years my biological father has increased effort to correspond with me, To be certain it actually started earlier than that, but during that time i was for lack of a better word, bluntly not interested.
Basically I had told him to die in a fire.
It was a year later after my 18th birthday that he came into town and urged me to come to a karaoke bar, he wanted to talk.
Obviously I didn't care. I had given up on the dude, but my other family members wanted to see me as well so I went for them...and probably because I was forced.
He started out acting as if nothing happened as he has tended to do for years, but then things changed... I think it was about halfway through the night, I struggle to recall if the talk or song came first but, at some point he dedicated a song to me. One with lyrics that seemed eerily specific. It was clearly chosen with some degree of thought.
After or perhaps before that, we had our talk in which I believe for only the second time ever, the man opened up to me.
There was no condescension, no random trivia or promises for future events he'd never act on, just him in a vulnerable state, saying his piece, apologizing and talking about things, that to my knowledge, nobody else could get him to open up about. And the part that bothered me the most was how similar this man was to me.
He couldn't have manipulated the reasons for why we're similar. Mind, it was how he said things, the way he moved, talked, the little things. He had no way of knowing.
And in that moment I didn't forgive him... not really, but I did offer him empathy. I offered him an open door with a spring-lock mechanism to boot him out if shit went arie. It's been years since then, every now and again he calls me or texts me on the IMs... not to brag or make promises, hell it is an improvement that he's even reaching out of his own accord.
No most of the time he just asks how I'm doing, if I have seen this thing we share an interest in, Or even a thing he doesn't like but I do. And while I still refuse to call the man Dad. Or send hearts or affection…
It feels like for the first time, he's making an effort not because someone told him to, but because he wants to. Course as i
I am cynical so I often dismiss it as guilt; dude has got to be in his 40s or 50s by now. And I really tore into him that one time. But maybe just maybe we've made some progress, both of us.
...
Today he messaged me again, said he just wanted to check in, I asked him in all politeness how he was doing.
He admitted to being...weirdly enough not okay! Being depressed in fact. Made a joke about buying a book from marvel to cheer himself up; and from there we just kinda talked like friends would.
And I would be remiss if i didn't say for once I enjoyed it.
Maybe someday we will do all those things he wants to do. I doubt it, but it isn't promises he can't keep anymore, just ideas for the future. Maybe that makes all the difference.
Stay Golden,
~Mjax Majoran
14/09/2020